hmm..the smileys dont work on here..anyway...everytime i wake up...i feel like wanting to die...because everyday is exactly the same..just like that song from nine inch nails, and i am so sick and tired of it...im alone all of the freakin time just me and my laptop and computer, and i am very thankful for my laptop and computer, because if i didnt have either, i wouldnt be connected to people, and i would be sooooo crazy..and im glad they have liveradio on the internet..its awesome. anyway i have a cut on my wrist..because well....i dont have to explain..everyone knows why other people cut...or do they?? i used to think..why do people cut, its soo stupid wtf is wrong with those people, now i see why they cut..i mean...i enjoy doing it..its like a thing for me to do...annd umm...yeah...i want people to see that i need help..so that when they see it..they would like...want to help me find people just like me ..i've tried so hard to help myself out...like getting help and such...no luck all i get is bills...but i am here..and blogging...and that helps me out so very much...i wish i had friends to hang out with that deal with the same shit i deal with..we would have so much fun keeping each other company ...anywass lata!! please...uhh...someone please respond and...more than one people can respond...xxxx btw im not fake i am so real